Dear World & LJers,
After a very long time of 9 years living in loneliness and craving for love and affection from someone, I finally found THE girl of my dreams; well actually she found me and it was here in LiveJournal. This (post) is the story of my life, chronicling how I found the love of my life...
It was out of the clear blue sky one day on Feb. 11th, 2009 that I saw a comment on one of my post here on LJ by "I". It was nothing significant or anything, just a simple comment; but it sure opened the gates to a whole new beginning and adventure that neither of us were aware of or knew about. I commented back and duly received a reply. I was so happy to find out how she looked like in her avatar and her user pics here and it stirred emotions in me and I got more interested in this person; especially because no one had ever commented on any of my post before her.
So after a few exchange of comments here on livejounal I asked her if I could call her and if we could talk on the phone. She declined but agreed to communicate through instant messenger. We did so, and after a couple of days we exchanged phone numbers. I was so nervous and scared the first time. Well we talked and it went really well n smooth, to both our surprise. I mean "I" was nervous too, funny thing is we both confessed to it the same time.. lol. We spoke for about an hour the first time! Guess it means something eh?!
Our feelings grew stronger for each other as we spoke everyday on the phone. We exchanged self-portraits and pictures of places and things we both liked. I was reluctant on sharing and talking about her with my folks. I didn't know what was to come out of it all; even though I just knew that this girl, this person I had met was no "chance" or a rendezvous over the internet... it was MUCH more than that and then some! I took one day at a time, while waiting for the next impatiently and with eagerness to share more and open up to her like a book. I wanted to know everything about her and her to know everything about me. That's how it should be I think, no lies, no hidden secrets. Transparency all the way! Funny thing is, she opened up like a book to me as well, like a newly hatched butterfly opening it's wings and revealing all it's majestic beauty to the world - but in this case it was only for me, just for me!!
(..... will continue soon)
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THE RHYTHM OF MY LIFE
Days past by and nights go cold
Lingering in my mind and in my heart
Her face and smile like incense in the air
And I find myself lost in it.
So very close and yet, so so far away
I hear her call out my name.
And every waking moment is for me to bear
This cruel fact, that I'm not with her there!!
How merciless can life be for lovers
One can't imagine till one truly falls in love
For every rose is guarded by thorns around
Alas! my lover resides in such a rose.
Oh! how I want to reach out and be with her
But are thorns in front that lay for me
Ready to tear me and water it with my blood,
The very rose in which my lover resides.
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The love of my life, my wife and my best friend... I will always, always love you "Pee-Pee" no matter what!!
I know that you gave me your heart, and have loved me to the fullest, more than you possibly could perhaps! For this I am and will always be grateful to you!!
My friend, my love, my wife... you will ALWAYS be there with me in my heart, and in my eyes no matter what happens.

I don't feel angry or hatred or animosity towards these motherfucking bimbos... I feel SORRY for them that they can't see...they shall however, on the Day Of Judgment !!
No breeze fills the emptiness I'm trapped within;
Like a pebble, I lay motionless and ignored.
The storms inside my head rage and confusion abounds
No one hears my screams, and no one feels my pain no more.
Deserted - I try to heal these inner wounds myself.
No flower blossoms in my garden anymore
No butterflies visit me to say "hello"
Only the weed grows, and worms abound.
Rotting with time, as if cursed by fate
My mind rusts and the heart dies with an ache
Life seems meaningless, and I see it fade away into the darkness of time.
If it loveth someone not...
Of what use art thy eye,
If they seeketh a lover not?!
The winds bring the message of love
And your ears refuse to hear;
Your heart beats within, and sings a song
But you bury it out of fear...
Such opposition towards nature
Starve your body, your heart, your soul;
To sleep alone and none to share your dreams...
You're like the dead - that lay without a soul !
Come and let out your hand to me,
Open your cage and set your heart afree...
For it to sing beside me
A song, together in Love and Harmony
~ a poem I had written a while ago... when I could still feel "love"
I have divided the list into "links" and "blogs". So those of you who are too eager to know more (or criticize more) can just check out the links. Whereas, those who want to read all about it can go to the blogs and check them out.
BLOGS :
desertpeace.wordpress.com/
http://freealzaidi.com/
www.rebelliousarabgirl.net/
LINKS :
www.jewsagainstzionism.com/
Anyone who wants to point a finger at my beliefs and what I think about Zionists, should definitely have a look (or more) at that link.
I want to make aware to all those Jews and particularly the Zionists the orthodox position of the Zionist is, according to a Rabbi Joel Teitelbaum
"Rabbi Joel Teitelbaum, was a Talmud scholar of the first rank. In his book “Va Yoel Moshe”, he made clear the orthodox position on Zionism, based not upon his personal opinion or prejudices, but upon midrash (biblical interpretation). In reference to Tractate Kesubos 111a of the Talmud, Teitelbaum states that God and the people of Israel exchanged three vows prior to the exile from ancient Israel:
1. That the Jewish people would not ascend to the Holy Land as a group using force.
2. That the Jewish people would not rebel against the governments of countries in which they lived.
3. That the Jewish people would not, by their sins, prolong the coming of the Jewish Messiah.
Rabbi Teitelbaum was not alone in this view. Many Hasidic rabbis share his convictions with respect to Zionism."
However, no one talks about the massacre, the genocide, the "holocaust" that USA and the like are doing to the Muslims in these times. Everyone says or calls out a "Muslim terrorist", what was Hitler I ask?? Wasn't he a Christian?! Why do you not call him a "Christian terrorist"?? The framing of words and stereotyping of a particular community of population in the world, and marking them as the ONLY terrorists in the world is purely political and diplomatic.
Jews all over the world were "kicked out" like stray dogs from their homes and homeland, many fled for their lives like coward sheep in order to save themselves. Only ONE PLACE and ONE PEOPLE gave them refuge and place to stay and thrive! The Muslims in Palestine. Slowly but surely for 50 yrs. plus, like termites in a house, they penetrated and made hollow the sanctuary and now we all know what is happening! No christian country or people gave them refuge, no one else other than the Muslims of Palestine.
Jews came and found their piece of land in the USA as well - NYC and Washington D.C. Everyone knows the American government is run by Zionists and the so called the "fort mason" family. They have not been able to take over the land per se. However, they have definitely fractured the family structure that was present since the early Europeans came. Homo-sexuality and Homo-sexual marriages are becoming "normal" and more widely accepted. The fabric of family structure has been torn and degraded to mere sexual deviations. Love and Peace has been converted to Lust and Greed.
Kids at school, in their 8th grades are shown movies of Holocaust and are brain washed with facts that most likely don't exist or are exaggerated a multiple times. Such is the functioning of Jews and at such level of society.
Jews are surely termites amongst us!

It's the art project of the century... lol You HAVE to see it !!

Link to the Page
This is what X-Mas is all about... the government turning its people into shopping whores...
... and people just play along !!
First off, gay couples/homosexuality is WRONG!!
Secondly, if some guy wants his ass fucked by another guy - just do it! Don't get the whole state and country involved you know.
Marriage is a religious-social act, and this is nothing but a mockery of it. If two people want to be living together and stay together (meaning homosexual), then just live together!! Why is there a need to be "married" ?? I think the fact that they can say "we're married" is a cover-up or an excuse to remove their guilty conscience. If they are not ashamed/guilty/feel wrong about being homosexuals, then what is the NEED to be married?!
Laws, federal or state, apply and reflect the views of the common. Common people and general population still view marriage as an act between a male and a female and not in any other way. So to change laws that would just cater to some is absurd - even if it is becoming a popular "trend" to be gay or at-least bisexual, esp. among the young generation in teens at an alarming rate.
I don't expect people to accept or encourage my point of view. It is however, my point of view. You may find it worth accepting and accept it. It doesn't matter to me. I feel there are limits to which people need to adhere, no matter how "modern" they get with time.
"Change is good, but mutation is a totally different thing"
I have been using T-mobile as a carrier for my mobile phone service for quite a while now. I was using Nextel which was bought by Sprint later on, but that didnt quite cut it. The main reason why I went for T-mobile was because it is GSM service, meaning it has phones that use a SIM card instead of CDMA technology. So I figured I could use any other phone I chose and liked. I didn't have to choose the "crappy" phones that were used here in the USA.
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I came up with this plan of allotting time for "studying and practicing" photoshop from my books. I already have had Adobe Photoshop for Photographers CS2 by Martin Evening and Photoshop CS Artistry by Barry Hanes & Wendy Crumpler. So I planned on fixxing myself a "3 hour Class". 1 hour of reading the book and 1 hour of practicing that I read and 1 hour of using what I learnt on my own pics. I hope it'll launch me into being a much better editor that I am right now.

Nadia has constantly amazed me by her self-portraits by the fact that she does not adhere to just one part of the body/emotion to portray "herself" but uses and re-uses various techniques.... showing off all or just an inch of herself; and yet she succeeds in her goal - of self-portrayl.
[ Do check more of her amazing work on her dA website:~ nadiawicker.deviantart.com/ ]
I guess everyone learns their lessons the hard way, cuz I sure did!! Went out and bought new batteries for the flash before the after party so I could atleast shoot them right!
But then, how much can anyone do with just one "kit" lens? I so desperately need to buy atleast 1 lens. It really limiting my work and things I can do with my 18-70mm kit lens... :( I think if I had a choice, I'd go with the 28-70mm f/2.8 AF-S (thats in my wishlist entry). Coming up with a $1000 is the trouble though... not to convince my parents that I "need" it.. not just want it.. :-P
Got about 150+ pics to edit of just this show and have 70 more to edit of the wedding. I'm going nuts... and my computer's given up already!

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Originally uploaded by Ruben Parra
Hate it or Love it, the M6 is and will always be an "icon" the world of photography!
This is an amazing amazing episode of one of my favorite TV shows of all times! Do yourself a favor and watch The Twilight Zone
Had a LOT of things on my mind to do, to get, to see, to visit... About 90% of all the plans didn't happen!! Didn't get to bring anything I had vowed myself I would. Didn't get the negatives, didn't get my books. I did get my binoculars and my Minolta Mirror magazine. These were the only two things I got. Not too sad, because I know we will be going back to India next year again.
The Flight
It was boring, dark and no noise in the plane. The flight took off at night. Well, I watched movies at first, one after the other. So yeah that was a bit of fun, esp. since they had a nice selection. We flew with China Airlines, stopping at Taipei, Taiwan. The service was good. No complaints there and yep, the girls were nice too!! ;)
So I bought this book called "The Rough Guide to Blogging" by Jonathan Yang. Its from the rough guides series, and its really nicely put. Very basic, and very easy to understand.
I needed to learn how to blog and what all I can do on my blog and also what are the different blogs out there for me to choose from. I think the book's really helping me on this.. yay!! :-)
So yeah, I've found some cool sites and I am getting a feel of what blogging is all about... so till I master the whole concept...
Ciao,
So yeah, it’s the “holiday season” and for some weird reason the US population goes on a spend-an-arm-and-leg mode... the shop owners couldn’t be happier!!
Its so unhealthy and illogical that one should spend his/her entire pay on giving gifts to anyone just because he/she has to.. I mean giving is nice but why give gifts to those that have more than enough and its not like you can afford it either! Give to the poor that sleep outside in the cold, give to people that are dying of hunger, give to those that you are obliged to give!!
But yeah, the americans cant help their bad habits and jews can’t be happier having to cater to idiots that thrive this wonderful land. Land that is not owned by anyone but God, and the land that was seized from the true inhabitants by the europeans that came here ~ and called it their land; and when the mexicans wanna come overboard, they are seen as illegal immigrants!! WoW… world is full of irony eh?!
Well anyway, back to shopping… hhhmm.. so yeah everyone does have wishes and I have an awesome expensive list of wishes!!So a lot of things happened this month..
My uncle fractured his two ribs; 2 models canceled out on me; I threw out my bed so I'm sleeping on the floor; looking for job gathered a LITTLE pace rather than just dead stuck... there is a little bit of hope shining through the darkness i guess; I had to re-install the WinShit again; I got a buyer for my D200... hopefully i will get my upgrade to the D300 soon enough.. yay!!
So, I have an interview tomorrow. I really hope it goes well. God, I need a job so bad!! Anyway, lets see what happens.
Ciao,
Well after looking at my options, the $199 bundle pack and the $169 single console, I went for the $169 purchase because the console itself looked much sturdier and "solid" in its construction and materials. The Star Wars bundle seemed too "plasticy".. and not able to last a good "play time" and handle all that "handling" it would get with me playing long hours on it. So anyway, i went for it and I got me Manhunt 2 as my first game. No complains!! The games awesome and DEFINITELY should NOT be played by minors or dumbasses that think its all possible as they see in these kind of games. I will be playing this one game for now, only to reward myself with a new one later when I get a job soon!!
Oh yeah, almost forgot to mention... my mom was as usual not pleased/happy that I bought something like this... ya, same story.. same 'ol same!!
~ Ciao
-VS- 
Well, looks like the Columbian University president Lee Bollinger had the biggest itch of his life, when he invited Iranian president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad for a visit to the University. Wanting to show off his American values and blind patriotic love, he started off by a "welcome" speech that not only was humiliating, but also extremely immature. In reply to his "faulty" upbringing and ill-treatment, the Iranian president asked if this was how the Americans welcomed its guests. Enough said for any human with decency and moral ethics to feel ashamed and guilty - but no one will ever know if Mr. Bollinger felt so!
American government has never had the courage to accept mistakes and has always been intoxicated with the accumulation of power and wealth. Unfortunately, this trend has been caught up by its own people, more so in recent years especially after the 9/11 attacks (or a show so intricately planned by the American Govt. to omit any doubts in its people, and so they may never question their bosses in the white house). The irony of America is that even though it is one of the most advanced (or so it claims to be) nation, it's citizens are THE most ignorant and uneducated people in the world. Consequently, they believe what they see and they believe what they hear, without ever questioning the source or applying logic to the matter. Not so surprising, as they have not been equipped with the tools that would help them come at a conclusion of their own, and not what the white house thinks.
The only issue that the American govt. has regarding Iran, is of its unwillingness to surrender to the American format and judgment. Furthermore, the fact that Iran mocks American govt. and openly voices its injustices and forceful nature that the American govt. imposes on all nations, makes it even more irritable. ONE nation in the whole world, and the U.S. of A unable to conquer, is intolerable to the American government.
Logic and reasoning seems far flung and thrown out of the window, as was seen when Mr. Bollinger addressed Mr. Ahmed in his speech. Only words of hate, brutality, abuse and irrational nonsense was witnessed -- Is this the Freedom Of Speech, America so proudly claims?!
P.S. The most hilarious part of the whole debate were the audience. On Mr. Bollinger's speech they applauded, and on the speech of Mr. Ahmedinajad they applauded... on who's side is the american public?!!







